Doesn't Life Ever Get Calmer Than This?

For seven years now I have been saying "I'm going to get caught up as soon as things calm down." Somehow in these past seven years things NEVER calm down. A few years ago I gave up believing things were going to calm down tomorrow or next week; however in the back of my mind I always thought someday things would get calmer, but now I have my doubts. For me, things began to get hectic when we had two children two and under and were dealing with autism, and then my life spun completely out of control when we had three children, three and under with special needs. But I always believed it was a temporary busyness that would someday subside. Here we are seven years later and life is almost just as chaotic. Obviously some of the chaos I have created for myself. I choose to clean, play games with my kids, get on the computer,and go to Bible study. I really do not feel that I choose to constantly go to doctors appointments due to the weird medical issues that constantly surround our children. Since the beginning of this year alone we have had 4 ER visits due to injuries(yes we do childproof and supervise our children), 2 minor surgeries, and 5 out of town doctor appointments, so I think I have an argument that some time issues just happen to me regardless of planning. However, I just stopped home schooling, one would think I would have all sorts of time to fill, but no, I'm just as busy. The only difference is I'm not as far behind. Now I am considering taking a temporary job which sounds completely crazy, even to me, but I know our budget would really benefit. So I guess it is just a matter of priorities and maybe I do create some of my own chaos. Time is supposed to be the great equalizer- regardless of age, race, income, or life circumstances- we all have the same amount of time. I may actually have more time than most; since it is almost impossible to live with our children and ever sleep! We live in a society where people compete for who can appear to be the most busy. That makes me a little sad. I think we could all benefit from a little rest and down time. It is even Biblical - God wants us to rest! I really hope to one day make down time a way of life. For now, I'm going to strive to rest in the middle of the chaos, since it is not going to disappear any time soon.